I have found myself to still be getting angry often lately, and I have decided that I need to simply let go...I will work on myself, and that is really all I can control.
I have been sitting by and watching people always take the easy route...the short road you may say. I, on the other hand, never choose those roads. Instead, I choose to take the long, difficult one convinced that I will reap greater rewards in the long run...that all will ultimately be "better" if I am willing to give everything. (Even when I do not think I have anything else left to give.)
I do it in all aspects of my life...at work, at school, at home, in my faith, literally on the road...I do it all of the time!
Yet, I have become so frustrated lately...It seems to me that those taking the short, well-traveled road are reaping always the benefits...in all aspects of my life. Take today, for example - I made the choice not to cut through a parking lot while waiting on a red light that was malfunctioning. However, there were many people who decided they would. As a result, it took me almost 10 minutes to get through the light, and consequently, I was late to a function. When I arrived, I was quizzed on why I was late. I offered my story; however, I do not think it was believed...a comment was made to me that someone else had made it. Interestingly, I had seen that person cut-through the parking lot...taking the easy way...not following the rules...And, in typical fashion, I am chastised for not...
I do not believe in taking the easy way.
I do not believe in doing things half way.
I do not believe in doing things to just get them done.
I do not believe it is right.
I know I have to have faith and know that it is not for me to judge; however, it is so frustrating when I feel so often it is not just me that is not being rewarded...it is my family. Ultimately, I do believe my efforts will be rewarded. It just breaks my heart that so many people are being betrayed, hurt, taken advantage of and led to believe things that are not true in the process.
With a heavy heart....
WHA???
10 years ago
2 comments:
I really do feel your frusturation...Really, I do. It really is difficult to do the right thing and always feel like you get less out of it.
We just have to believe that in the end, our efforts to do the right thing have been noticed (although, perhaps not here on earth) and that eventually, WE will be rewarded. Not always easy though, believe me, I know. Hang in there!
Love you!!
Natalie
The way you have handled very difficult situations and the choices that you have made have been just a couple of things that I GREATLY admire about you. I have told you often that I look to you as an inspiration on how to get it all done without disappointing people. I truly believe that you are one of the few REAL supermoms!Unfortunately, because of your "superness", people take you and what you can do for granted :( Keep taking the road that God leads you down and hold your head high because HE is filling your crown if with jewels as we speak.
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